Today is Good Friday. It meant that I only had to do rounds and wait for emergencies if any. I did that. But I didnt do what I should have done - I didnt go to church today. OK I can give you pretty acceptable excuses - I was on call, there were 4 cases in casualty (3 at 10 AM and one at 12 noon) which would have meant that I would have had to scurry back from church, I was tired etc etc. B ut I wonder whether that suffices.
Yesterday I rediscovered my drive to learn driving .... and today I discovered that my "drive" to go to church seems to be at an all time low. Part of the problem is that I havent got too many friends here and havent yet found a good church. But is that enough of a reason. Back at Vellore, I used to work extra hours, finish rounds early, request permission from my chiefs, do anything to go to church, lead and involve in worship and be known as someone who would be in church as much as possible. While I really miss the Peniel Tabernacle in Vellore and am yet to find such an exciting church here, thinking deeper into it I seemed to have gotten into a frame of mind when I am using my work as an excuse for not going to church. At the end of today I was feeling quite upset with myself because I didnt seem driven to go to church.
Now Becky and I have a wonderful time of devotion at night, but while it is awesome, that still is not enough...... God help me get closer to you. Gimme the strength and the drive.
And incidentally I DID go for my driving class today...... and Becky and I slept off without doing the devotional.........
Do say a word of prayer right now for me if you're reading this.... I need it.